Anonymous asked: i don't know when you're going to get to read this, but i just wanted to say good luck and that i wish you the best and i'm so, so proud of you! <3 i'm rooting for you, sweetheart. :)

Ahhhh this makes me smile. Kisses for you :***

Anonymous asked: How long do you think you'll be in there for? What weight/ bmi do you have to get to?

I’m not sure how long I’ll be here. Typically it’s a one to two month stay.

Anonymous asked: How old are you? Just wondering. That picture of you and your mom is the sweetest. Hope you're doing okay.

I’m 17! Thank you so much, today has been a pretty good day so far (:

Anonymous asked: how much did you weigh when you started treatment? /what was your BMI?

Nope nope nopeeeeee :)

Anonymous asked: babe you look so so so ill :( those wrinkles by your mouth when you smile make you look about 10 years older. It breaks my heart because you're so beautiful x

Hence why I’m in treatment…

Anonymous asked: We miss your posts and the beautiful spirit you bring to Timblr. You really are one of a kind and I'm so greatful you ever decided to have a tumblr because you have helped me in ways you'll never know. I hope you are having a positive time in treatment and you are getting the help your body and mind so badly deserved. All the love!

Aw, thank you so much :3

Anonymous asked: You got a pass already? Wow, you aren't even medically stable yet. Please stay until your weight is restored. It is impossible to gain the weight on your own; after all it is hard enough maintaining it. Take care, and update us. Hang in there

Umm they suggested I go on pass to be exposed to the outside world. I can’t live in a hospital forever

•I’ve been here a little over a week but it feels like its been months
•Medically I’m doing better. I was admitted underweight, my heart rate was at 38 bpm, I had collapsed blood vessels due to dehydration, and I nearly passed out in the exam room. Physically I’m feeling better and my heart rate was 42 today.
•I’ve met a lot of amazing people here who are easy to relate to.
•The whole eating part is hard (obviously) but each day it gets a bit easier.
•I am constantly busy here omg. Therapy, nutrition and doctors appointments, yoga, Traditional Chinese Medicine therapy (acupuncture!), art therapy, outings, process groups, cooking groups and a bunch more I can’t think of right now.
•Body image is rough but according to my dietitian, my weight hasn’t changed in the week I have been here so I guess that’s a good reality check.
•I miss my puppy and my own bed so much :c
•I still feel really apprehensive about how I will do on my own. I know I’ll be here for at least a month+ but even then, I know things will still be difficult to be honest and do things on my own.
•I MISS ALL OF YOU SO MUCH AND THE LETTERS YOU SENT ARE LOVELY :***